Halloween

I just love Halloween!! It's the time of year where good girls can be a little bad, at least on Oct. 31. Where kids can be superheroes or little monsters and it's accepted with smiles and candy. I love to see lite up jack-o-lantern on porches or in windows and the yards decorated with witches and ghosts! I love to play in the multi-colored leaves with my son and to hear his laughter as he's kicking up leaves in my face. It's a great holiday and I'm happy to say it's my favorite of the year!
Happy Halloween everyone!

New Beginnings

Well I've been out of the internet scene for a while because of the big "D". Yes, the dreaded divorce word. Luckily there was only a few weeks of chaos and tears. Now it's happy thoughts and focusing on the future. Priorities first. My son. My family. My continuing education and getting my life in a new order. A new routine filled with work, future school and finding out just who I am again, and what I'm really made of!
I'm focusing more on being the best mom I can be and providing a loving, happy home for my son. I pray the Divine will grant me, my hopes and dreams.

I also need to really get focused and start lossing the weight that childbearing and depression brought on. That is definately a hard thing for me!

So here's my call to my sisters and friends and family...please help me get myself off my a&& and get running and working out! LOL.

Long weekend

I had a nice long weekend. It was pleasant and relaxing. I mowed my lawn and hardly had to cook! I'm not the Rachel Ray of my kitchen. I visited my family and a friend or two and just plainly enjoyed my weekend. What can I ask for more!?

I've been picking my way into my scrapbooking area, which is my kitchen table. Pouring over old Making Memories magazines and playing with my son.

Just thought I'd drop a line and tell all who read this my blog is still functioning.

I did it all by myself!

I know it sounds stupid or a bit snoby but hey I'm proud I did it! What did I do you may ask? I mowed my lawn. All by myself! The oddity of it is that I have never in my life used a lawn mower. That means any kind of lawn mower. I was always to short to use our sit down mower, I know, I know. Funny right. It was an older one without the adjustable seat so when I'd try to start it; I'd stall it by having to sit up and the seat would come up and stall it.
The rules of the house were normally that the boys did the outside work and the girls generally did the inside house cleaning and laundry.
Well yesterday I decided to mow my lawn. It needed it badly and I wanted my son to play in the backyard, not a half grown jungle! I did all my lawn, front, sides and backyard! It took a bit to figure out just how to start the darn mower but I figured it out! And to my amazment it was easy! I got a bit of a sunburn but it was worth it! The odd sense of acomplishment that came with finishing was great! Who needs a man to do it! lol.

Slow weekend

My weekend so far....one word, slow.
Friday night was okay, I hung out at my sister's, while my husband did his usual poker night.
Saturday has been nice. I got up to early, thanks to my son being like his father and getting up when the sun shines in! My hubby and son went to the park to rollarblade...Christian is getting so good on the blades! I'm so proud of him! I took a stroll on my bike in the park with them. I had the pleasure to see the Canadian geese and thier new chicks which are still yellow! I even got to see a cute waddling beaver!
I also got a page done for scrapbooking! Which is a great feat in my house with my son around! Now I'm ready to see what tomorrow brings.

New Outlook!

Well I did it. I took the first steps to getting into college! Now I just have to see if I can get into college, funds and all. My hubby is all set to go and excited about it. As am I. I wish him all the luck and encourage him in it. I just hope that I'll be able to live up to my expectations of college when I do go. (Dean's list!)
I'm sure I'll be needing a little editing help from my female members of my family and math help from a few too! My cousin is helping me already with helping choose teachers and classes so that's a plus!
I'm excited and scared! Yay!
Wish me luck!

I haven't blogged in a while so I thought I would. I thought this nice sunny yellow rose would be a nice reminder of what will be blooming as soon as this darn snow is gone for good!
I've been thinking about the next 5 years. I'll be 32! Wow! How time flies! I know I'll be in college and doing great at it, a new challege! A new adventure! A new beginning! I can't wait! Now, I just have to get into college and I need someone there to kinda hold my hand I guess, to give me that little push. I'm scared but I know if I just jump I'll be glad I did.
I want my future daughter,(Skylar Phoenix) but she may have to wait a while! Maybe in a few years or so. I'm having that baby craving again! Huh if only!
I want a job too....a good one that I can excel at. I haven't been having great luck recently in that department...one bad boss or temporairy job later....enough is enough! I want a good, job that I like going to! Huh...college here I come!
well that's all for my rants I guess.
Now here's a funny movie quote that I just love! I love the movie too....

"I’m just like every modern woman trying to have it all. A loving husband, a family. I only wish I had more time to seek out the dark forces and join their hellish crusade."
- Morticia Addams, The Addams Family

goals in life

I recently took a trip it Jackson MI...it's only about 2 hours away! But I got to visit with my friend, Cassey. My son loved her cat, so did I...to bad we couldn't take her home with us! The dog would have loved it! lol.
I've been trying to get into better shape, you know, follow my sisters' example, well that's been a long, lung bursting road...I'm sure my 2 1/2 year old son would have done better than me! lol.
I've been recently revaluating a few things in my life, mainly my outlook on the next few years....here's my goals! And I'll need Help in doing a few of them (hint, hint to my sisters!)
1.) Get into better shape
2.) be able to run up to 3 miles without keeling over and dying!
3.) lose my "baby" fat, all of it!
4.) eat better, welcome salads!
5.) be a better mother, daughter, granddaughter, sister and friend. Oh almost forgot a better wife! opps!
6.) Choose people who uplift and encourage and are just good for me personally and spiritualy in my life, no negativity! (that one could be stressful)
7.) Start college!

So there are my future goals, starting as of yesterday!
I welcome any and all who can help me to acheive my goals.

best friends

My Weekend.
Yesterday, (sunday) I got a visit from my friend Jessi from High School. She and I talked and reminisced of days gone by. We looked at scrapbooks and talked about our signifigant others. It was a relaxing time and I enjoyed it imensely.
We got a call from our other HS friend, Cassey. We went to meet up with her in Flint.

There we shopped, laughed and talked up for a while. Eat pizza and again talked about days gone by. It was nice but too short! We all agreed to get together soon...when all this blasted snow melts!!
It was great to see my two best friends again. More reconnecting.
Once at home I made dinner and sat down at the TV and watched a little of the Nascar race. When my husband fell asleep on the floor I immediately turned the channel to watch the Oscars....love the Oscars. That's about all of my weekend....hope yours was great.

Connecting

I recently reconnected with a few of my "older" friends. One is one I look up to and she's been friends with the family for years. I just haven't gotten the opportunity to see her much over the years and was very glad to be able to sit down and talk with her. The other was one of my high school best friends. I haven't seen her for about 5 years now. Yet, still being with her was like going back in time. I was actually having fun and joking around and laughing. I felt good again. I felt sort of like I was back in HS. Not that I don't laugh or joke or have fun but it was in a different way this time. A more relaxed time. Being with both friends made me rethink my attitude on myself. I need to take better care of myself, emotionally and physically.
I want to feel happy all the time. For myself and no one else.


On a another note.

My Weekend so far...
Has been dog sitting....and cleaning up pee!! and the darn dog is housebroken!!! Is it bad to want to throw a dog outside in this weather and wish it luck?? I would of course never do that but come on! It's already left my robe, husband's shoe and a pair of pants covered in piss! And it went on my carpet and twice in my son's room and in my kitchen!! I'm not fond of the dog now! And it's only for the night! I can't wait for it's owners to come and get the little rat dog!

Now on that note I'll leave you, I have to go and wash my robe, again. it still stinks!

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day to all!
My day was pretty laid back. I did get a lot accomplished today that I thought I wouldn't have. I cleaned my shower, sinks, bathroom and organized like a crazy woman! I sorted through the mounds of unopened mail. I packed away clothes that no longer fit my son. I finally put away all the Christmas decorations...in my defense they were put into boxes, just not put downstairs until today. I cleaned my house and laundered the sheets. Sheets cleaning are normally a weekly thing that doesn't get done every week! I finally can actually use my dinner table for dinner now. Or scrapbooking...that was my motive, to use it for scrapbooking.
My son and I took an extra long nap today. So did my husband.
I gave my husband his Valentine's day chocolates. He asked my not to spend anything on him, after the fact. Oh well, it's the holiday...we all deserve something, right. I got nothing. No suprise there.
I did do good and I got chocolate I won't eat. It's dark chocolate, I hate dark chocolate. I'm a good ol' milk chocolate girl.
My husband took my son on their now traditional Saturday Rollerblading. Kiddo loved it. I didn't go this time...I stayed home, blared the radio and cleaned house.
I hope you all had a good holiday. Or at least a nice productive, relaxed one.

Happy Thoughts

I was looking through some of my old old pictures today. I was attempting to organize a little bit. I saw a lot of old family Christmas's. The pictures and thoughts that came with them made me smile. I found school pictures that should be burned (horrible!what was I thinking!) And times of innocent fun, like when my oldest sister and cousin loved to play "dress up". Unfortunatly my sister, cousin and I were the dolls. We looked like country versions of Toddlers and Tairas! Of old friends and family. I realized that my childhood was great. I have a loving family and friends. What more can you ask for?
Now I'm really looking forward to our next scrapbooking weekend. I've got new ideas for old pictures.

Toilet Time!

Potty Training. Two words some parents fear. It's really a doubled edge sword. On one side it's a great thing, no more diapers. On the other, it's such a hassel and a long process and it means they are growing up! No longer your darlings in swaddling! They talk back to you, sing with you, laugh at you and with you at times, and they are so honest it's gutbusting funny.
Yesterday, my hubby and I were having a heated arguement and a few choice words slipped out. Well I happened to be on the phone with my Mom at the time and she heard it and laughed at what Kiddo said. Christian walked up to my husband and told him "Daddy your a B*****!" (female dog) and I laughed and so did Mom. It was funny. I had to tell Christian not to say those adult words. Big Boys don't say those words.
And Christian gets this comical look on his face when he passes gas. He always says "I farted, Mommy" and gets this happy comical face on right after. It's the honesty thing again. Makes me laugh all the time.

Photo Meme- Roses

The flowers were from my husband, James. He gave them to me before Christian was born. The flowers were a "I love You", a "Just because" bouquet. He also gave my Mom flowers too, not roses but a very nice bouquet. Roses are my favorite flower. I started to take pictures of all my bouquets that I was given. I use to dry them and hang them up on my walls in my closet, but James hated it. So I just took pictures of them instead, I had a lot of fun doing it. They stood still and didn't talk! The best subjects!

Childhood fun!

I got the thinking about what I loved as a child and remembered that not much has changed. I still love the watch Disney movies and collect Comic books. Yes, I'm 26 years old and still read comics! I know I'm a dork and that's okay with me! I still read "children's" stories on occation. I still love a good stuffed animal to cuddle with every now and again. Usually when my son is playing with his stuffed animals, I'll grab one too. Seeing a pretty flower will still excite me....especially if I get them in bouquets, which is so rare nowadays.
I still collect rocks/stones but now for different reasons, but still I collect them. I still love to learn about history, that one will never change. I'm still fasinated by the animal kingdom, but instead of reading about them I watch National Geographic Channel or Animal Planet.
All my fun things I did as a child I still do, only some in different forms.

My boy loves to rollarblade and color. Also to play cars and drive his toy cars all over. I wonder if he'll still love it when he's twenty? I'm sure the rollarblading will be a lifetime thing, like his father. The coloring, maybe not.

New Year, New Troubles

Well the new year came and I got to kiss my best little man on New Year's Eve. That was the highlight of the night.
Things got a little hairy at work. My boss is very much like Professor Umbridge in Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. She is sickingly sweet one moment then an evil "wench" the next. I was told is was done to each employee but I think she just didn't like me from the start. She proceed to give me little math exams just to make me feel stupid and harassed. I hate math and she just loved to make me feel like I was in Kindergarden again. She wasn't a nice person. She'd give me questions that I didn't even have to know for the job, the computer does them for the technician.
Well then she cut my hours from 24 a week to just 4 a week! I knew she had started to train a new tech. but the woman had no training as a tech and probably won't last under her riegn of terror for long.
Last night I saw her come into work on her day off and knew. I was fired. The conversation lasted all of two minutes and I walked out without a good bye or an "F" you to my former boss. I don't want Karma to come back at me and show me what she can do, so I left without any lashing out.

Now I can only look to the future with happy thoughts and a positive attitude. I will get a job and I will succeed at it. And it will be much better than the last one.
The only thing I will miss is the friends I made there, one in particular I will miss, she was a friend and confidant.

So wish me luck please on finding the perfect job for me and please, I need one fast, as in last week, fast.